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| User: | faer_child (10414099) Ivy's Journal
A Recovery Journal |
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| Name: | faer_child | |||||||
| Location: | Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada | |||||||
| Birthdate: | 1981-06-20 | |||||||
| Bio: | Okay, so the thing is ... I don't know exactly what this journal is about. I'm SURE I'm going to offend some readers as I've obtained some pretty unorthodox views over the course of my pretty unorthodox life. I'm sure there'll be a lot of pain and tragedy in this journal -- at least for the first little while -- as that's my main focus right now. It's easier to say I was born in Yellowknife, and moved to Sydney NS when I was 5. When I was seven, I joined the school choir (nothing like a bunch of kids trying to sing!), and when I was nine I joined the school band. Also when I was nine, I was violently raped. Is that something I want to tell everyone? Yes, it is. It happened to me, and it's a very big informant on my opinions, and the kind of things I think about. When I was ten, I moved to Pictou NS, and spent some long years in a strange agony I didn't understand. And also a strange agony I did understand. Such is youth. When I was fifteen, I started writing about three girls named Kimberley, Libby, and Tina. It was intended to be a novel. It wasn't. At the age of 17, I wrote a story about two girls who fall in love and then a bunch of tragedy. Their names were Celci, and Lily. For the next near-decade (octade?) I obssessed over the story, trying to understand what it was about. My grade 12 English teacher told me it would make a good novel, so I tried to turn it into a play. (Ah! the pride of adolescence.) At the age of 18, I entered Mount Allison University, still intent on finishing my play. Then my computer got a virus, and had to be reformatted. I hadn't saved the play. It was a loss, but not a great one. As I continued on my tour of education, I converted from Agnosticism to Witchcraft, and began to study mythologies in within the context of belief, as opposed to silly superstitions that no one is foolish enough to believe anymore, but aren't they cute stories? When I was 22, I tried to conceive of the Lily story as a graphic novel, once again, to no avail. After that summer, I enrolled in a composing course and at the end of the year put on a 60 minute composition recital to cap off my career at Mount Allison University. Shortly after graduation, I started writing Lily as an opera. This lasted much longer. I changed Celci's name to Celsi (pronounced "Chelsea"), and added a character named Anais. I didn't know who Anais was, but I had some clues as to what she acted like (crazy). It wasn't until an all-night meditation that I realised Anais's role. And then I couldn't continue with the opera. At the age of 24, I stopped working in order to deal with the recently developed sexual abuse issues. It's amazing how deeply you can suppress memories and feelings, and for how long. In August of 2005, I stopped working, and it wasn't until October that same year that I even remembered that I had been raped. See, as it was happening, I was forgetting it. It's something that happens often to trauma victims. In December, I started the first draft of my novel, the one my grade 12 English teacher had said would hold much promise. Looking back on the original story, I'm amazed that he saw any potential... it's AWFUL. (No, I will NOT post it here.) That brings us pretty much up to date. I'm on the verge of turning 25, and I hope to have the novel completed by the end of August. About nine months. Perfect for the gestation of a human child. | |||||||
| Memories:: | 1 entry | |||||||
| Pictures: | fewer than 10 public | |||||||
| Interests: | 16: children, composing, inanna, inner-children, music theory, numerology, occultism in general, reclamation, religion, sex, sexuality, survivors, talking, tarot, theatre, writing | |||||||
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| Mutual Friends: | 9: abbyjanechick, bcdm, ginasketch, grinning_dagger, jeanniecee, june_rain_eyes, purplefroglady, shioneh, wolfcaroling | |||||||
| Also Friend of: | 1: jaala | |||||||
| Member of: | 2: anti_porn, femminista | |||||||
| Account type: | Plus Account | |||||||
